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Weak Saturday, November 19, 2011 @ 12:11 amHi ppl! Yes, i've been on haitus for a long long time. Why?! You dare to ask me why? (kk... i need to chill) Yup, because of A levels. no time to update. anyway, what is there to update? There is like nothing much interesting except for the rantings about how hard the paper was, or just to complain/rant about paraniod i am. After 2 weeks of exams, i'm kinda numb to this stress already... I could still feel it piling up, but i've learnt to ignore this "pain" and carry on... Only until i found a way to release this then i could break down and start again. I wonder if something went wrong. I realise that i've became very emotional, or rather too emotional nowadays. I kinda lost control of my tear ducts you know... I realise i've been crying a lot these days. As in, i'm not crying like howling like i've lost someone, but whenever i read something angsty, or watching touching dramas or simply listening to a song, my tears will just start flowing like that. This is really scaring me... I really wonder, what the hell is wrong? I can't remember which day, anyway just after a paper, i was on the bus home and listening to my MP3. Since i always put my MP3 on shuffle, i wouldn't know what song it will play. Then it played this song "Precious one" by KAT-TUN and i started tearing when they sang "you are not all alone anymore, hitori jya nai(you are not alone)"... Luckily the bus was quite empty... Precious one - KAT-TUN (right... i shouldn't have looked up and watched this video. The music is touching already, and now with the image and i see Taguchi and Maru crying, it made me cry again... See? This is how weak i've become T^T) haiz... But someone tells me that if i do cry when i see touching scenes in dramas, while reading angsty stories, it means that i still have a heart. Yup... i still have my emotions... maybe a bit too much... But i find this a good thing too... This is a good way for me to relieve my stress... I remember i was so disappointed with myself during the prelims, especially that afternoon that i got back my econs prelim scripts. I was so disappointed that i kinda like lost my emotions and feelings. So i resorted to touching ballads and i could let out all my disappointments and go back to work again... Right... enough ranting already... hope for this period to be over soon! 19/11/2011 12 days to the end of A levels. 頑張ります！！！^^ |
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